Ch-Ch-Ch-Changes

I’m suppose to be strong that’s just who I am. But you’re breaking me down again and again. Now I’m embarrassed by all that I feel. Like this weakness wasn’t part of the deal . It is just much too real. And I just want you to try . Out of all the girls by your side, I wanna be the one who holds your eyes. Now...I can't stop these tears or this rhyme.

Yo, I wrote another song ^^ haha so I have been praying a lot lately about some things that I need to work on. But I'm going to write them down so you guys can hold me accountable and help me out. Cool beans?

* I need to stop being jealous. Envy is something that has completely gotten me handcuffed. And it's not envy of possessions or looks or anything like that.
* I need to learn to rely on people more. I've always wanted to be the person that EVERYONE can rely on, but I realized that someday, I'm the person who is gonna need someone.
* I want to be someone who is NOT intimidating to be around. I want to be that person who everyone feels comfortable around and feels like I'm approachable and what not.
* I need to take better care of my body; both eating wise and exercise wise. My friend Amanda was telling me about this book called Fit For My King. And it gives good, legitimate reasons to stay fit. I always use to go on mini diets and half way through them I think "why am I doing this? I should be happy with how God made me"....but this book talks about how God intended us to be healthy and active. He BUILT us to be fit.
* Okay first, I need to be slow to anger. But when i DO get frustrated, I need to stop feeling completely guilty about it. There are a couple people in particular where I literally go through the same process every day: they do something, I get angry, I don't say anything, I get mad at myself for being stupid, I feel bad, and I try my best to make it up to them. So basically it goes from someone doing something wrong to me trying to make it up to them. o.0 haha